Have you ever just felt disconnected from the world? That's how I felt from the beginning of the year until a few weeks ago. I feel like I just woke up from a long dream.
I remember everything that happened, but it's like my life this past year was a movie. I felt like I was watching the time go by instead of living in the moment.
I must be pretty cool in that state of mind because I made a lot of friends this year. Nothing seemed to matter emotionally though. I was detached from reality or something.
When I started to live my life and not watch it again, all the feelings from the previous months bombarded me. The fear and nervousness about college and graduation (my future as a whole to be honest) were especially hard to deal with.
Once I came back to life, I came to some realizations. I realized that I take things too seriously whether it's something someone says or even a school assignment. I've also been treated like crap for months and I've just taken it. I feel like I'm everyone's punching bag and I'm just expected to take it. There's more realizations, but I won't bore anyone with the details.
I've decided that's it's time for a change. I'm not gonna be that person that gets used for their car, advice, company or anything else. I'm a pretty nice person to the people that deserve it and it's about time someone starts treating me like that. Just saying.
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