Past few weeks struggles

There's been a lot of drama in my friend group the past couple of weeks. In general terms, one friend has a few problems and everyone else has gotten pretty annoyed. It's died down thank goodness.

The drama itself hasn't been keeping me up late at night, it was how I thought people were going to react. The major thing that keeps my mind busy is knowing that my best friend is going to be leaving at the end of the semester.

I don't know how we got this close. I have a history of not getting close to people because it hurts too much when they inevitably leave. I'm always left alone, broken to put the pieces back together.

I think it was my first year seminar that made me open up and be willing to be close to people. I wrote a quick write about a major influence in my life. I picked hearing the story of how love shouldn't be a secret. I slowly became closer friends with her only to find out that she's leaving. Instead of distancing myself, I've decided to become as close to her as I possibly can. It's gonna kill me when she leaves. I'm glad that I met her.

I know that keeping in touch isn't as hard as it used to be, but it won't be the same.

Getting to know her is the best thing that I've done in my first semester of college. I've learned facts about the world, things about myself, and life lessons. I'm going to cherish this time for the rest of my life. Just saying :)

College life improvements

I've only been a college student for a few months and I've decided that I really like it. It seems kind of silly that I was so worried about coming up here. It was a huge transition and most kids in my position would be nervous, but I've met some of the best people in my life up here!

I think that some of my friends are only friends for now while I'm still at UMPI, but I know that a few of them are going to be life long friends.

We've grown pretty close over the past few months. A few of us have been to the ER via Sabrina, a.k.a. the Grimm Reaper. She's been super understanding about taking people places because she's one of the few that actually has a car on campus.

We celebrated Halloween last week. There was a dance and everyone dresses up in a costume. We all looked awesome, and I felt awesome! I've lost a lot of weight since coming up here so I've gained some confidence. It was an amazing feeling to be free of all the negativity, mostly from me. I felt awesome and looked hot.

I've also been learning how to become an individual. I have a lot of work to do, but I'm very different from who I used to be. I can make friends, talk to strangers, and do things for myself.

I'm still learning who I am. I guess that I thought I would discover new things about myself and learn who I am right of the back, but I still couldn't tell you who I am as a person. Ralph, the campus counselor, said that I'm too hard in myself. I've heard that many times before but it's only now starting to sink in. I'm worthy of more than I give myself credit for. I've also done more than I give myself credit for.

I came to UMPI as a newly diagnosed diabetic. Since then I have learned to take care of myself causing weight loss. Every day I grow up and learn a little bit more. Just saying! :)