New experiences

It's been rough adjusting to the college life. In my last post, I mentioned the likely possibility that of going home next semester. I'm not sure how I feel about that now because I've made some really amazing friends! We've only been together for about two weeks, but it's different than high school friends. We all seem very close. I have the suspicion that the reason for that may have to do with the fact that we're actually living together, which is actually kind of awesome!

One of my new friends, Kassidie, has a birthday today! We're celebrating it later, and I love it! Her and Laksmis have been trying so hard to make me feel involved and more social. I don't know how I can thank them enough!

I did my laundry here for the first time yesterday. I felt really adult about it. I figured out how to use the washer and dryer here, you have to pay and push certain buttons. It was actually a pretty cool experience. I'm glad that I get to try new things.

I started changing the way that I eat about a week before I came here. I was actually diagnosed as a diabetic so it wasn't a choice. I haven't told many people because I find it really embarrassing! I'm 19 and I have to take meds to help my pancreas and I have to turn my world upside down! It's been really hard going through this because it feels like I can't eat anything that I want without feeling guilty. The silver lining here though is that I'm losing so much weight! None of my clothes fit anymore so I'll probably get a new wardrobe when I go back home in October with Kayla!

I'm so excited to see her! We've never been apart this long! We talk everyday, which is awesome, but I miss actually being able to talk to her in person. I'm glad that she tries to understand how I feel. Even though we're apart, I think that our relationship is getting stronger! "I feel like she's opening up to me more, and obviously I'm opening up to her.

In the end, I'm happy that I came here, even though the food sucks! The people are super nice and they totally appreciate my weirdness and my Snapchat weirdness! That was never fully appreciated at home by anyone other than Kayla. Just saying! :)

(Don't mind the horrendous picture of me!)

The college life...so far

I've only been in Presque Isle for a little over a week, and it's super stressful. It's not that it's a lot of work, but being an adult.

I like to define my position in life right now as an adult in progress. Since I was adopted, I've been taken care of. It's been weird being on campus without any of my family. I really miss them and everything.

It's safe to say that I've been adjusting to this life: showering in the same room as other girls, sharing a room again, being in control of getting my own food and cutting up my own meat, and doing my own work. I've been keeping in contact with my family, but it's still been very different. I know that I've only been here for a little over a week, but right now I don't think that I'll be coming back for another semester.

I might change my mind. Id talking to my mom and she made it clear that it's okay if I change my mind and end up wanting to stay up here, but right now I don't feel like I'm going to want to.

It was awesome seeing my mom and sister today. We went out to lunch at Ruby Tuesday. We talked a lot and just hung out. I think that's one of the biggest things I miss, having conversations in person with my family.

I think that my favorite part of the day was when my mom told me that I need to eat more because I'm withering away. I told her that it's the food here. I eat a lot less food and more healthy stuff. She brought me a giant thing of man n cheese and then bought me for boxes of granola bars!

Overall, I had a wonderful day with my mom and sister! Just saying! :)