I'm terrified because it's going to be a huge change. I've finally come to a spot in my life where everything is kind of stable, for lack of a better word. I'm more confident that I used to be and I've grown to be someone that I'm almost proud of. I plan on going to go to a new school, hopefully UMPI, and it's like almost three hours away. It's going to be completely different, and I wont be able to lean on other people like I've grown accustomed to. If I am lucky enough to go, I'll only know one person there, a friend from Dirigo Girls State. I wont have any family close by to see all the time. I'm going to miss them so much. I'm also an introvert, so I'm going to have to learn to talk to new people. It's going to be so overwhelming.
I'm excited because it will all be new. I know that kind of contradicts the previous paragraph, but it's how I feel. I've gotten tired of some of these people, and I need a little change of scenery or friends. The familiarity has become boring. I used to have major life changes so often; this same day routine is a little to easy to do now. I want a small change, but I'm going to get a world of change.
I'm very sad to leave Bucksport High School because this year has been the best year of my life so far. I made some amazing new friends like Zarah, Brooke, Caitlyn, and Caitlin. I had new teachers to teach me new classes. I've recycled my teachers through the past few years. This year I had Mrs. Morrison, and she is the best teacher I've ever had. She also figured me out. She gave me the first year that I didn't stress out about midterms. She has also taught me life lessons that I will never forget. Thank you Mrs. Mo! :)
Graduation feels like the end of everything that I've worked for for the last four years. It's going to be weird, but theres a saying that says something like this: When a door closes a window opens. I may have butchered it, but you guys get the point. I'm going to miss high school for a very long time.
Graduation is the first step to the rest of my life. Just saying.
Just saying...I LOVE YOU! This was sweet, especially that part about me. I get your nerves and boredom and fear. I felt all that too. It's like that with every next step in life. First serious job, marriage, kids, house, yada yada yada. You're right when you say you used to have a lot of change and now you feel like you need a little one. It will all work out the way it's meant to - don't you worry!
ReplyDeleteI hope so! I got a letter today. I got the scholarship to pay my tuition at presque isle
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